Thursday, March 10, 2016
Behind you
The clock keeps spinning
and the time is passing
Standing alone in the park,
waiting
Hoping that you’re in front of
me, looking
The anticipated day went by
Sparkling beautiful lights flicker
Yet, solitude did not add to
it, right
I am waiting for you to appear
But, my hope wilted and so is
my heart
Monday, March 7, 2016
A Slip Back From The Past
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What a lovely book. The Flight of Gemma Hardy depicts the story of a young girl named, Gemma, who became orphaned at a young age. Her uncle took her in as a promise from his sister, Agnes.who is Gemma's mother. Throughout the entire book, Gemma's life wasn't easy. She always had to struggle to survive. At a young age, she knew how hard life can be. How cruel people can be. But she surpassed all of it. Stand against the current. Stand firmly on what she believes in.
Witnessing Emma's journey, from being a child to a grown woman, I cannot help but reflect on my own. This book depicts a girl who have faced a lot of difficulties at a young age through her teenage years until being a young adult. I cannot help but admire Emma's courage of standing on her own. She is an independent, smart woman capable of enduring any hardships thrown at her. A great read!
“Once again I glimpsed the way in which departure ripped the veil from ordinary life, revealing things that were normally kept hidden.” ― Margot Livesey, The Flight of Gemma Hardy
What a lovely book. The Flight of Gemma Hardy depicts the story of a young girl named, Gemma, who became orphaned at a young age. Her uncle took her in as a promise from his sister, Agnes.who is Gemma's mother. Throughout the entire book, Gemma's life wasn't easy. She always had to struggle to survive. At a young age, she knew how hard life can be. How cruel people can be. But she surpassed all of it. Stand against the current. Stand firmly on what she believes in.
Saturday, December 12, 2015
Still Alice by Lisa Genova
"She looked back toward the beach, the landscape dimly lit. A figure approached. She knew it was John before she could identify any of his features by the bounce and size of his walk. She didn't ask him where he'd been or how long he'd been gone. She didn't thank him for coming back. He didn't scold her for being out alone without her cell phone, and he didn't ask her to get out and come home. Without a word between them, he undressed and joined her in her ocean."
Lovely book. I was halfway through Alice's journey. I don't know what to feel about this book. It actually scares me a bit. Call me a paranoid, because I always am, but I'm scared to think that I can be in the same situation as she. I am already forgetting things at a young age. Not normal like any other so I got worried a bit. But, I don't want to really think about it.Reading this book made me realized that I shouldn't jeopardize myself. Stressing myself out of nothing. I know I am depressed and I know the implications it can bring me if I didn't stop the habit. I really don't want to think about it. I will take care of myself more. No more stress for me.
And about the book, I believe everyone should read this. You should.
Tuesday, December 1, 2015
Love and Misadventures by Lang Leav
Another Teaser for everyone! This is my latest read. Lovely poems coming from Lang Leav ~
Do you know what it is like,to lie in bed awake;with thoughts to hauntyou every night,of all your past mistakes.
Friday, November 27, 2015
Friday Finds
Anyway, here's my Friday Finds! (Clockwise)
November 9 by Colleen Hoover. I am a new fan of this author. I just read one of her novels, Hopeless, and absolutely love it. I also saw that most of her books are almost 4 stars. To think, that she has several books. That would have been a great feat! And I surely know that this book will be great too!!!
Perfectly Imperfect by Harper Sloan. No need to say that it has such an alluring cover. So great in the eyes!
The Fall Up by Aly Martinez. The cover is lovely.... I know, my weakness! I have always been captivated by lovely covers! Just the cover makes me want to eat the book up, right there! Just kidding ~
The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah. It is so good to finally see again the work of a great novelist. I remember a couple of years ago, when I was only at the beginning of my reading journey. I had read one of her books that became one of my favorites (Night Road). Seeing its beautiful cover and that it won as the best historical fiction in 2015 at Goodreads, well, how would I not read this book. It is a must. Add to that, that it is about the history that I so love to unravel, the years of World War II. I would definitely read this book out!
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“Maybe time didn't heal wounds exactly, but it gave you a kind of armor, or a new perspective. A way to remember with a smile instead of a sob.”
― Night Road
Wednesday, November 25, 2015
The Lover's Dictionary by David Levithan
only, adj.
That's the dilemma, isn't it? When you're single, there's the sadness and joy of only me. And when you're paired, there's the sadness and joy of only you.
I read the book about a month ago but really wanted to devour myself with this very sexy, mysterious novel of David Levithan for years. There is a tinge of anonymity in it. I do not know the characters, just their situation in bits and pieces. In scenes, they have control of what I would see. The way it was written with a touch of poetry and using words to describe and relate the characters' lives, was just lovely. I would want to read this more and more and more ~
Sunday, November 16, 2014
The Girl Behind The Book
My life is filled with
unknowns
My story is yet to be written
So stay awhile and take a
look.
Papers scattered on the floor
Heaps of tales to uncover
I wish I am that damsel
That is rescued from the fall
Like the sobbing little girl
In the tainted snowy white dress,
I am only a petty kid
That is also in distress
A memoir of their enthusing
lives
Filled with acts of
unforeseen twists
It might be utterly vexing
But I want a happy ending
Picturesque ladies among
others
Striking gentlemen along the way
It’s not reality
And so I must wake
Monday, June 30, 2014
New Found Love
There are things that we are afraid to embrace and things which we thought of as scary but, unexpectedly, it was something beautiful.Perhaps, it is still too early to say. I am just halfway through the first month on my new school. It's been hard getting in here but I feel that it's going to be worth it.
Rashly deciding to transfer school was what I'd done. I was reading a book and it made me realize things. But leaving my second home wasn't that easy especially that last day I stepped on that school; that time when one of my professor asked me if I already enrolled, I cried. It hurts to leave home. I have reasons and I think about them hard. It seems so selfish, rash, and crazy but I just think that if things get rough on my new school or if I can't handle the stress, the load, the people, then, I can't do anything.
Since living far away from home, many things had changed. I did things on my own, my laundry, I budget my money for food, and living with other people, I came to adjust, adapt and loosen up. Also, I feel so free.
The first day of school, I feel like a kid walking through the throng of students, feeling this heavy weight of anxiety and asking myself, "What am I going to do?", "How am I supposed to overcome this?" and telling myself that "I can't do this."
Days had passed, I met people. I got to know them. I was, almost at it, used to the new environment. I am actually loving it; The walk from school, that small two-way road with no sidewalk that I love to trudge on. Inside the school, the buildings, the place itself and the library. How can I not fall in love with this?
There was this one time when I stayed at the library late in the afternoon, reading books while catching up with my friends at my old school. I was so happy to know that they missed me. I thought they would forget about me. By around 5:30 pm, I was done with the reading and decided to go out. The place was almost vacated with few students roaming around. The sunlight at the time shone just right. The sky is at its perfect hue and the clouds, at their perfect forms.
It was beautiful. It is such a lovely afternoon. I can't help but smile. I want to capture that moment and that place, to preserve what I see. However, I wasn't able to.
But my destination was to the open grounds. I was about to meet my friend and go home together. The place had a number of students on it. Some were jogging while others were training. My spot was just right for me to witness a more magnificent view. Even though, there were quite a number of students, it was still peaceful. I really can't explain well what I saw and felt that day but it was so vivid in my mind and heart.
All I know is that I'm falling head over heels in love with this place. :)
Wednesday, June 4, 2014
Code Geass
I am finally able to make it to the 25 stages of Code Geass R1.
I'm glad to have watched the first season. I get to witness how it all started. Lelouch and Suzaku's ten year old selves. Their past and how it all began. How Lelouch got the power of absolute obedience and how Suzaku turned from a kind to a cold-hearted guy. I can't blame him though. After their somehow "confessions" to each other, that terrible thing has to happen. It was my favorite part. Those looks they gave to each other that conveys everything that they wanted to say. That awkward moment turned to sweet and romantic. They are perfect for each other ~
I like how simple and lovely things are, at that time.
Its sequel came. I watched it already before and I just have to see it again. So, I download the episodes and ran through those 25 turns. I thought the second time would have spoiled it for me. But, I am absolutely and undeniably wrong. I was always looking forward for what's coming up. Even though, I already knew what's going to happen. I was actually hoping that by this time, it will be different. There won't be deaths. There won't be sorrow.
The excitement was still there at the epic battles. I still had so much fun with their happy times together, those school festivals and just themselves moments. No Knightmares and wars. Just a normal students in a high school having fun and living their lives to the fullest. But that was just me. My imagination.
Most of all, I still can't get enough of Lelouch and Suzaku. I love them and hate them. But at the end, I still love them.
That can't be helped.
I can't even choose whom I want Lelouch to be with. He has a lot of girls... *sighs*
His oblivious mind about matters such as love is part of overwhelming charisma. The indifference, his taciturn attitude, his brilliance and beyond human intelligence is really what makes him stand out among other guys. I can't blame those girls who are clamoring over him. I can't blame Shirley for being madly and deeply in love with him. Because I am.
While I love Lelouch, I also love Suzaku. His kind altruistic heart. Him. Everything about him. He is just perfect. A normal guy who firmly stands up on his values and principles. I love how cute he is and that he is a gentleman. He is the guy that I would love forever. If he is even real.
For all the characters, kudos! I love almost all of them. Well, I hate those spiteful people. I can't bring myself to like them.
Above all of those, I am beyond moved by the tragic finale, even at the second time. Those last episodes had been for that final moment. It was epic and heartbreaking.
But he has to be alive. He needs to be..
Tuesday, April 22, 2014
That Nagging Feeling
I wasn't able to continue with the 100 Happy Days Challenge that I joined (I deleted my previous posts already). It's kind of difficult to keep up especially without a constant camera in hand that would take that happy moment for the day. Better yet, if it's just a blog post. But, anyway, no pressure, right?You can't be truly happy if you do things rather obligingly like you're just compelled to. That's not happiness, it's an obligation. As much as I'd like to push myself, I don't like to worn myself out fulfilling many things at a time.
I'm saying this because of another reason though. I'm starting to worry about my lack of enthusiasm at things. I mean, at the things that I love or enjoy doing. It's summer vacation and I have all the time to do what I've been holding off since I'm busy worrying about school stuffs. That's me, I guess. My mind never went to sleep without worrying. On everything. What an unhealthy habit.
I'm jaded for the most part of the month. I didn't enjoy reading that much anymore. I wasn't that thrilled to watch anime that I long to watch before and manga that I've always wanted to read. Whenever I'm playing games - Kingdom of Amalur Reckoning or Hay Day - I did so, rather mechanically. I'm not enjoying it one bit. It's like I'm doing it just to pass time.
I don't know what my problem is. But, this has to stop.
My sleeping habit has gone worse this vacation, as well.
One of the things that made me awake at night is that the decision of whether or not I'm going to transfer school. I actually declared at home and to my group of friends that I'm transferring, and that it's settled. But, the thought of leaving them behind makes me so sad. For two years, I'd been with them. I already know a lot of students and professors, vice versa. It feels like home to me... Like when I was in high school. The thought of not seeing them again (Ok, I was being dramatic there). The thought of not being in the same environment as them hurts me. I'll be able to visit them weekly if I wanted to but there is this nagging fear that everything wouldn't be the same then. It hurts me more. They're like a second family to me. I love them... in my annoyingly silent awkward way.
