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I appreciate those posts that has a constructive criticism on it much much better. The government is not perfect and I don't think people will have a perfect leader on their eyes, to be honest. There will always be lacking, I know. Just like with ourselves.

This just frustates me to no ends. I have been using social media these days less and only to update myself on the news, nothing anymore.

I have been pissed at the people on our government. I am. I actually don't believe in them. I see corruption and lies. Manipulation and abuse of power. There's always a question of authenticity at the back of my mind. However, generalizing them won't help you.

We should learn the facts and understand them. The whats and the hows of the disease, how the system works, how the government operates, the laws and other things. Be properly informed.

And, we should criticize constructively. I know people are using social media to be heard which is totally fine and our absolute right. But, I hope that our need and purpose to be heard is vital to the cause and will help us and the people around us.

Let's always go for a win-win situation and help as much as we can but with knowledge and heart. 

“We can't begin to learn until we admit how much we don't know.” 

― Claudia Gray, A Thousand Pieces of You

when 

someone

offers to 

save you

make it

your mission

to 

save yourself.

- I believe in you

(The Princess Saves Herself On This One)

"The sad thing is," she said, 

"the moment you start to miss someone, 

it means they're already gone."

(The Universe Of Us)

Nothing like poetry gives me the chills. It has a way of giving you emotions. A page with a few words, meant a whole lot. It can pierce you. Break you. Make you back up again. It can open your eyes and it teaches you things. 

And those two did give me a plethora of them and so much more. 

Currently Reading

“I have a feeling that when I'm Stormy's age, these everyday moments will be what I remember: Peter's head bent, biting into a chocolate chip cookie; the sun coming through the cafeteria window, bouncing off his brown hair; him looking at me.” 

So, I finally found the courage to start reading the last book of "To All The Boys I've Loved Before" Series. I have prolonged this moment because I wanted my last glimpse of Lara Jean and Peter's story to stay that way. This is the finale of the finale. And it breaks my heart knowing that.

I have nothing much to say yet since I am just at the beginning of the book. Jenny Han is such a great writer. She can give the most common occurrence in our lives so much color and life. How she can turn these little  moments into something big and wonderful. I love both Lara Jean and Peter and every characters in the book. That's why it would kill me if they wouldn't end up together!! So, please Jenny Han, give me a good ending!

That is all for my Sunday Currently Volume 2!! By the way, this is a weekly post from Siddathornton's blog. Click the link to see more. And...

a parting words:

“Never say no when you really want to say yes.”
- Always and Forever, Lara Jean

The day went by so quickly. After our morning calisthenics, where we do some exercises to loosen us up and to give us energy, we went straight to what they call "values" where issues, concerns and the core values of the company was discussed openly. We were grouped together to discuss concerns about work so that we can come up with solutions. It was such a great activity for us since for a newbie it is good to see the sides of each department.

After our open forum, we went to fill our stomach. The weather that day is a bit gloomy. It rained for most of the day. Good thing, though, is that we did most of our activity indoors. 

When lunch is up, we were able to tour the place for a bit and went to shoot some pictures of us inside because it's raining. Then, around 2pm, we were called in the session hall for our team building. After that, we were by ourselves for the rest of evening (that is before dinner and the last event of the day). All we did was enjoy our room and the view. I would have add the pictures of our room but it wasn't in the computer so maybe some other time.

So, this is it for my lately's.

Bbye.

The past six months have been a blur. I was only going through day by day, most of the time, wishing the day to finally end and the weekend to finally come. It has been my sentiments every week. I know I shouldn't feel this way. I know I shouldn't think this way. It's not going to help me at all. It's not going to make my life or work easy. 

I feel so frustrated. I felt like I have been passed back and forth like a tennis ball and I know that if I keep going on like this, I will stretch myself thin that I would break. And today, I feel like I am on the verge of breaking.

Hi there! I'm unofficially back again into writing. Unofficially - being the operative word there given that I am still not sure what to do with my blog. Too much on my mind right now. Too much inaction, I might add. So, for now, I would want to give it another go and just see where it will lead me. Anyway, here's my Sunday Currently Volume 1.

Reading

I am currently reading two books: 1 e-book and 1 paperback book. The reason behind the overlapping of books there is that I just can't stop myself from reading anywhere. I don't have an actual book with me all the time so for an uncontrollable bookworm itch that I couldn't scratch away, I have a lot of e-books with me. The first one is Wasted Words by Staci Heart and the latter is a book of Bram Stoker - Dracula. I should probably write about my current thoughts about these books on a separate post 'cause if not this will be longer than necessary. By the way, I just visit the site of Goodreads (I'm always using the app version) and I absolutely love its new layout!! Also, I want to share that I already completed my 20 Books in 2016 Reading Challenge, so I added another 5. Okay, I'll stop being annoying already...

Writing

Nothing interesting really. This is my first time in such a long time when it comes to writing. If you can consider writing random notes, goals and motivational words in the back pages of a notebook, then maybe I can write it down here. Probably elaborate those goals next time. When clarity finally meets me. And with firm resolution to boot. Yes, I probably will.

Listening

To the current soundtrack on our house. It has been on a daily basis, those beautiful songs playing on continuously. The music of Christopher Cross, Bread, Kenny Rogers, Bee Gees and Air Supply. Also, the songs of Shania Twain and Michael Buble. And should I forget the latest songs on Youtube Mix, that is a lot to enumerate right now and the children songs on loop. I'll be able to sing their lyrics on the coming days. Not that I'm complaining. I love them!!

Thinking

Can we please not go here? In thinking? Seriously.. I'll be on it forever. This is actually why I started writing this post. 'Cause I want to release some off of my brain. It is currently congested really. So, I'll be unloading them one day at a time. The motto that I try to currently live by. One day at a time.

Smelling

Honestly, I can't smell anything right now because of my congested nasal passageways. I just love the word right. Maybe, I should start "one word a day", as well. To kick-start my love of word and writing.

Wishing

I have many on my bucket right now, but if it's only one wish then I am wishing for a fruitful year. I know.. too general... It's already Ber-months and my birth month too. I will be 21 in less than two weeks so I hope for things to go great if not superbly amazing. 

Wearing

My usual attire: comfy shirt and leggings. It's currently 2 in the morning and yes, I am still sort of wide awake and writing.

Loving

The new addition to our family! It is his first month in this world and I just love this little but overly cute boy! Always want to carry him and couldn't stop staring. Loving to have my own someday. Someday!

Needing

A sleep! I will finish this as soon as I can so I could get a sleep. I know.. waking up early is not my thing. 

Feeling 

I felt light! Would really love to continue this. Unloading is almost done!

Clicking

Inspirational blogs and various sites. But, I would like to mention Siddathornton's blog. Join her link-up here (SUNDAY CURRENTLY).  By the way, I'd first seen the link-up through Maine Mendoza's blog. I was perusing her blog, reading how good of a writer she is. Lovely blog and blogger!

"Happiness is an inside job. Don't assign anyone else that much power over your life." - Mandy Hale

As the end begun, 

beginning comes forth, as well.

It was such a delight.

But, like everything, it has to end

A new start in our doorstep

Seize it the best we can

- by me

. . . . .

I don't know if that could pass as a poem, though. But it sums up what I feel. Yesterday, I woke up late, just like I did for the past weeks. It was the last day of the year and I spent twelve hours of it on nothing. Just like every time, my mind was replaying things and along with that, making me see what happened, what I did, what I had become, oh..the list goes on.

That is why, with the clean-slate days ahead of me, I want to seize every bit of it. I want to better myself.

P.S. I wrote it at four in the morning, so forgive me with some typos and some nonsensical/incoherent details.

P.S.S. The bottom line is  Happy New Year!

I want to share this link: Once You Eliminate Fear, Anything Is Possible

. . .

"In the end, it's about making your fears fear YOU."

I came back to a place where familiar memories flooded to me like it was only yesterday. Do I make sense? Does it matter? I don't even know what I'm thinking or feeling right now. All I know is that I have this realization of many things. Things, like for one thing, bothered me before. Things like I couldn't do or catch up on even if I give it my all. Things like I didn't pay attention to and had forgotten over the years. And those things that matter most. Do I make sense? Forgive the nonsense crap I'm giving...

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E F F L O R E S C E N C E

B L O S S O M I N G

For starters, I would like to introduce to you a great work by Juria, Efflorescence. Just read it. You should experience it first hand.

It's still an on-going meaning written work published on textnovel. A website of where you can find phone novels.  Each chapters are pretty short compared to the hardback covers we usually find. Text novel lets you enjoy a different world at your own small device. 

Way back before, when I was still on my last year of high school, my friend introduced me to this site. We both write intermittently. I was not a writer. Not a good one. So I was mostly changing things up. I had my story published there too and it ended up unfinished. Hihi

If I didn't make any sense, forgive me. Actually, the bottomline of this post is that amazing story up there. If you can't see it, just ask. If you find it, read it and you'll know. 

The semester's finally over... and you know what? I don't know what to feel about it and to think that I'd wanted this so badly before.

Here's the thing, I miss school, the routines, the activities, the civilization (if you know me, you know why) and him. Forget about that. I also miss having people around me even though it's kind of annoys me at the same time. Blame it on the noise, I guess. I'm not really used with too much commotion. My cortisol levels spiked high whenever one arises. 

Then, months before, I missed having time to watch anime and movies, read manga and a lot of books. 

So, you see? It's complicated... 

Now, I have a lot of time just to do that and a little to do the other. Well, it can't be helped.

Anyway, I have this good news for myself! My long waiting is over because... THE HOST is finally on theaters!!! Whether I feel good about it or not, I am still excited on seeing it, at last. My hopes are somewhere in the middle. I don't want to expect much or little of it. Just the right amount of hope. IAN O'SHEA! Finally, we will meet! 

"In so many millennia, the humans never did figure love out. How much is physical, how much in the mind? How much accident and how much fate? Why did perfect matches crumble and impossible couples thrive? I don't know the answers any better than they did. Love simply is where it is."

Speaking of movies, I recently watched a local movie, "Way Back Home" which I'd already seen before and only now did I fully watched it. It's about a girl who got separated from her family when she was young, and living and believing that her current life was her life. When she was finally found, she begun to live the life she was supposed to live at the first place. Her big sister kept her coming back a difficult one. Until she confronted her, and all became well eventually. To make it short, it's a great movie. A family-oriented one that will make us realize how important our family is and why we should treasure them and love them unconditionally.

It's already 2 am in the morning. I have to go and rest. Night!

Oops.. I forgot about the first anniversary of my reborn blog >.<

It's last March 27 the same date from the last day of the semester.

H a p p y  A n n i v e r s a r y  B l o g !

It's me again!

Exam week is almost over. Two more days and subjects to go. But on Friday, we will going to have an event in the park near our place. Sort of like a celebration or something, I heard and they vaguely mentioned earlier that we will be televised or something. We had practice earlier and it was really tiring but it sure takes the stress away, even though just temporarily. We did some aerobics routine and we're like a flash mob. It's so cute!!! We also did dance on some popular songs. Anyway, it's been really a good feeling having your body move especially with an energizing music on the background. 

Time check: 2:55 am 

It's nice to be typing away my thoughts again after these past weeks. I don't even know why I was writing a post right now. I should be past asleep. Midterm examination week is still ongoing. I'm in the second day so that means, three more to go.

About this stress less thing. It is my first task or goal or mission or whatever it is called, for the year. In January, or before it ends, I should deal with my main predicament.

While thinking of things, which I do so often that it was half of the things I do every day, I realized that this matter should be put into consideration. While spacing out/wondering/daydreaming is a great part of my day, stress is also there. Lurking behind my mind, ready to ruin my day.

When I am stressed, I become moody. When I am moody, I do things that I don't like. One thing is, snapping. I hate it when my patience is at its limit because after I lashed out, I will feel bad for doing so. Then, that would be all I could think about until I reach to the point where I hate everything about myself. The endless cycle of self-hate resumes. 

But that's the thing about me and I want to change it. Plus, I've been reading articles about health and being stressed won't absolutely do you any good. It will just lead to depression.

They said that the equation is simple

Life - Stress = Happiness

That sounds so ideal. Life without stress doesn't exactly mean you'll be happy. But it takes time and patience and effort. Again, one step at a time.

"Life is not so idiotically mathematical that only the big eat the small; it is just as common for a bee to kill a lion or at least to drive it mad." - August Strindberg

Advance HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

*Updates. Updates. Updates

It has been two weeks since I had been freed from the overwhelming but exciting first semester of my college. I shouldn't used the word freed, though. It sounds like I didn't like it much.

I can properly conclude now that, even though I had been into so stressed these past five months, it had been a great experience after my long absence in the social universe.

As I mentioned earlier, it is my semester break and I've been enjoying it, partly excited for the upcoming semester and partly wanting this three-week vacation to be longer. The reason is I had been occupied by university works that I haven't had time to fulfill my desires. That is, to read in a pleasurable pace, to watch anime without anxiety of tomorrow's load-works and to wake up whenever I wanted to.

Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer . P.S. by Helen Schulman . The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins

Truth be told, this is the first book of Twilight series that I finished. But I read several parts of the first book. So maybe, I was not in the position to judge the series. But still, I will declare my thoughts about it. 

First, I came to hate Bella. No, not hate, just annoyed. I'd been irritated by her ambivalent sentiments. It's mostly about her ignorance about her feelings for Jacob. I mean, how can she not know? Ohh. I don't want to rant about it. All this time I was ignoring Edward, I am on Jacob's side you see, and while reading the book I realize that Edward is okay. I mean, he's admirable at some points in the novel. But, Jacob did shine on this book. My love for him surges more and more brighter! So yes, I'm still on Team Jacob.

. . .

P.S. by Helen Schulman. The story behind the book, hardback book, and I is this: I was going home from school and decided to stroll inside the mall. There's a store that sells few books so I always check it hoping to find a good catch. Luckily, on that day, the novels were right in front of the store and I rummaged through it, seeking for that glimmering book. You know what? I ended up buying two novels, the one by Helen Schulman and a novel by Emma Sweeney. It's really cute. I was mentally squealing as I bought those two. I eagerly wanted to read it as soon as I got home but stopped myself. I should save it for later.

So, end of story. I have the book and read it. Sadly, my admiration for it had sunk low. It's not actually that bad, I came to love it as I reached the end. The prose is great. The setting of the mood, tone and wit of the novel is very skillful. I hope I am as great as she. But the downside of the novel, for me, is the story. There's nothing on it that affects me. Most of the time, I was appalled by the unnecessary stuffs that was in print. The aggravation I felt after the end was ten-fold. 

I don't like the story but the prose is amazing.

***

I really wanted to read The Hunger Games. It has a movie adaptation but I prefer to read it first. I have nothing much to say to it because I was only starting my journey on reading it.

I had only been in almost two chapters but I am already caught by it. The story is great. Sadness and bewilderment are what I felt. I am devastated to think of the situation the characters were in. I am awed for what might happen and I am amazed on how it's adeptly written. The prose is so good that if I would describe it in terms of taste, it would be bittersweet. Sweet for the beautiful prose, because while I was reading it aloud, which I do most of the time, it tasted like a sumptuous meal. It's hard to explain but with my love for words, I can't help but admire them. It's weird and confusing. I'm not really that good at expressing my thoughts in a well-defined sentences using the exact words. That's why I really look up to those people who do. And bitter, for the characters' situation, because whenever I read a book I tend to place myself in the dimension the novel was in, I think everyone of us do, to experience it personally.

It's still on my "currently reading" shelf at Goodreads so I still can't give my full verdict for the book. But I feel it, this is a great one.

Here's Gosick for you. It is the anime series that I finished in my break. The rest of my "currently-watching" line-up are D-gray man, A-channel, Kimi to Boku and SNS Final. I will all put them on hold. I wouldn't be able to see them for a while, though.

I'd been sidetracked.
I'm almost on the end of the tunnel which is my semester break. I sense a great stress ahead. Too pessimistic, I know. I should really put an end to that kind of thinking...and might as well, put an end on this long post already. I'm sure you're already fed up with me. 

Thanks for reading!

I felt pressured, like there's a heavy-laden load I didn't notice on top of me. Things felt so fast. Last month, I was just blowing the candles in my cake, and now, our semester break is already halfway through, finals was over and it's already the 21st of October.

Still, time is disregarding everything. She still goes on her way. Oblivious to me, ranting here. Maybe, I should get to what I really want to say...

Actually, this very charming, talented, good-looking guy below, celebrated his birthday last October 17. May this day and the years to come give you so much love and life. Happiest Birthday!

. . . . . . .

IdolM@ster has finally concluded! While my final week on school dragged on, the first two weeks of October, surprisingly, I'd gotten a spare time to finish this amazing anime series. The songs are so great. I love most of the episodes and all the characters are hard not to love. The last few episodes are the most intense for me. I stopped myself hard from crying at the end. It is really a good watch. I hope you include the series to your watch-list. You won't regret it!

I was also done reading The Winner Stands Alone by Paulo Coelho,

Updates for anime, I was watching Gosick. For books, I was reading Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer and I put Hard Times by Charles Dickens on hold for a while. I still can't settle my mind on it now, that's why it's on hold. There's also a small-cabinet of books that I am going to read. My collection! So, I don't notice how much books I already accumulate just this year!